frank: i see. i am not pushing you, trust me i will always respect your decision. if you don’t want to continue, i will try my best. but trust me i love you, i want to see a powerful lin and i want to prove my love with action. i am responsible to improve your life quality.
　　lin: ok, my hero.
　　frank: i find a nice french restaurant, tomorrow we have dinner there ok?
　　lin: if i am free of work.ok.
　　frank: baby also remember, do not let ur past shadow and bother u
　　lin: how can u remove the shadow hanging over which is too impressive and deep rooted?

　　frank: if u are confident u can confront any kind of circumstances.try not to think about those stuff, try to concentrate on new things; keep yourself busy working, studying and meeting new things new friends
　　frank: or with me...lol.
　　lin: day dreamer. hehe.
　　frank: sometimes i feel a bit lonely; needs someone to share and understand. when u discussed with me about ur past, i feel so strongly about it. i am sure it swollows up your confidence
　　lin: yes. but i am trying to get rid of it.
　　frank: it pulls ur legs. when u need to stand up, u need someone who knows ur past and understands u and give u the support u need, so that u don’t have to fight alone.
　　frank: i can feel that u are alone most of the time, u don’t like to share things with others whom u don’t trust

　　lin: but it’s hard to share, i have little friends before i work and only chat online, hiding true feelings as a self-protection mask.
　　frank: because it’s a wounded area, u don’t want to be hurt again by exposing it, it makes u feel weak.
　　lin:childhood did influenced me. when i was a kid, i didn’t wear beautiful garment. even i grew up i can afford now, still feel uncomfortable to wear beautiful and luxurious garment, i get used to simple life.
　　frank:i don’t like show off woman.
　　lin: do u love your wife?
　　frank:best be honest now im not in love anymore, love has died. 7 years gone. she had affairs with some men..which is a tragedy to me. you know she is not feminine as you, always order but not listening.
　　frank:i still feel it’s kind complicated in that regard frank: when i was a kid my dad was so busy in football team, never seen him home. And my mom so overwhelmed in raising 3 of us it strenghthens me and made me strong all the time.

　　frank: i really connect with you, i feel we know each other long time, i feel very natural with you, i cant explain it’s
　　not flattering, you make me feel very strong and man.
　　frank: i believe there is a reason behind it i really cant believe we have met-so many people in china!
　　you are one in 1300000000.
　　frank: i feel very lucky
　　lin: i am just an ordinary chinese woman, don’t exaggerate...

　　frank: no way u r special, fantastic
　　frank: honestly, im normal guy my business is normal
　　lin: i know. although other women may overestimate you, lol!
　　frank: i dont pretend to be big boss. at the beginning i was shocked that people treat me like a king, so easy to get things. but you know i need soul mate. i really truly hope at least we can be true friends. even though passion can go away
　　can diminish but there is respect, understanding, drive to communicate and maintain fresh to each other.

　　lin: u r right, that’s every family’s challenge--keeping fresh.
　　frank: im sorry bore you so much, i feel very comfortable with you, i cant expalin it, go sleep baby
　　you need to work tomorrow morning, sorry. i feel we have been together in a life long before
　　lin: u mean, preexistence?
　　frank: yes. not sure if this is accurate statement, but i feel i know you a lot.
　　frank: u r hungry and starving for love sometimes, right?

　　frank: i mean within your reach you want more.
　　frank: well, for me i want to love more than i want to be loved
　　lin: don’t u want to be loved?
　　frank: i am not saying that i don’t want to, it’s ok not to be loved, but to me it’s more important that i love, than to be loved, making you happy is so great!
　　lin: does that prove ur power? u seem very romantic, so special in this environment, hehe.
　　frank: yes. if someone loves me dearly, i will double the love to her.

　　lin: in chinese, we say di shui zhi en, yong quan xiang bao(滴水之恩，涌泉相报)
　　frank: actually you are first person im open to in china.
　　lin: thank you for ur trust. i am sleepy now, my sister wants me. good night.
　　frank: wo ai ni lin. work with me please, i will pay you double or more...lol.
　　lin: before i work with you, could you find a girlfriend first
　　frank: are you serious?

　　if that’s the only way i can see you i will have a try. we cancansurpass our relationship.
　　日期：2008-8-26　13:18:18
　　刚才妈给我打电话
　　她说：我觉得你真的变了。这次在家心不在焉，你到底在想什么，都在跟谁联系？我是过来人了，知道维护一个家要牺牲个人的快乐，抵挡很多诱惑。因为你不再仅仅属于你自己。一个女人在20多的时候诱惑最大，被骚扰是很正常的。可是男人就是满足一下征服欲，得到了就摒弃你，从心里看低你了。你可不要一时糊涂，把这么稳定的家庭毁了。他对你到底好不好？有什么事你别瞒着我们。

　　我哭了，说：妈，几个月前他打我了。因为婆婆。
　　她说：这个我一定要找他谈，一个男人动手动脚还是人吗！你也不要太软弱，他打你就威胁他们，报警，带孩子回家也行。一旦第一次得手，第二次就顺理成章。打人会上瘾的，恃强凌弱是人的天性。
　　她问：是不是去你老板那里了？
　　我觉得很荒唐，这个问题很恶心，让我很受侮辱。我激动地说：不是！我不是小孩子了，这是我的事。我不想说。你没有权利拷问我！
　　她说;我不管昨天你去哪里，干什么了，及时刹车就行。买房的时候通知我，家里会尽量帮你的。不要对家里这么隔阂。说实话，妈妈非常后悔小时候送你去奶奶家。短短几年，现在怎么都弥补不了了吗？